Choosing Between Two Lovers

You say that you aren’t willing to lose one or both of these women. Since you are unwilling to choose, my first question is why can’t you have two lovers? Are you receiving pressure from one or both of these women to make a choice? Are you leading a double life and lying to them both?

If the latter is true, then peace of mind will be impossible for you to find. While it is true that humans are capable of loving many people, having two lovers is leading you down a path that will end in disaster. Most women don’t take kindly to sharing their partners with someone else. Sooner or later, you are going to lose at least one if not both of these women.

It is always possible that you are seeing two women who have the same unfinished childhood business. For example, if these two women had a parent who wasn’t available to them; perhaps a parent who cheated on the other, then they would naturally choose a guy like you who recreates their childhood trauma. In that case, you would be perfect for both of these women. I highly doubt that both of these women are playing out their childhoods with you. More likely they are either unaware of what’s going on or waiting for you to choose.

I remember an old psychoanalyst who told me about apatient who spent years obsessing over what career to choose. He wasequally drawn to two options. After decades, the analyst finally said,’It’s time to shit or get off the pot.’ The same applies to you. You can’t have your cake and eat it too (unless you are dating two of the most unusual women I’ve ever known. I’ve never met a woman who likes to share her boyfriend. I highly doubt these two women are comfortable sharing you!)

Life is about choices. Each choice is the elimination of other choices. The fact that you won’t choose tells me that you may have been over-indulged as a child and given whatever you wanted when you wanted it. If this is true, then you never learned to be frustrated. You learned that you could have your cake and eat it too!This over-indulgence would predispose you to giving yourself whatever you feel like having, including a relationship with two different women.

It is also possible that your refusal to choose may cover a deep fear of commitment and intimacy, which itself covers a deeper fear of abandonment and/or rejection. Until you give your heart to one person,you aren’t loving anyone fully.

Now I know that religious servants don’t marry or give themselves to any one person, so that they are free to do their ministry and love everyone.  But, you’re not a priest! You’re a lay man–no pun intended! So, since you don’t live in a polygamous society, you are going to have to make a choice or become a Mormon!